Tuesday, January 17, 2012

As promised...

This past week has been one of more reflection and searching deep within myself. As I continue this new journey I often ask myself what is behind the next corner, which can be the next day, next month, or in the next six months. I know everyone always says live in the moment and each day as it comes, but personally I feel comfortable at least having an idea of what the next thing may be. But beyond a lot of soul searching and continuous adjusting to this new life of mine, week three is complete!


The Daily grind…

I have started to get into a routine with work and finally understanding more and more every day. I normally arrive at work somewhere around 8-8:20, meaning I get up at 6:20 roughly after hitting snooze twice, and spending a half hour in traffic to go 12 MILES! The office hours are not set in stone, which is nice due to the traffic being different every day. Today being my first day back this week, as yesterday was a holiday, I got the statement of the year I feel, “Oh good Brie is still here.” It seems that at least once every week one of my co-workers make that comment, my hopes is it is a joke! They are a wonderful group of people, and while the job is at times tedious and I know the flood of work is coming, I still enjoy what I am doing.

Somewhere around 12:30-12:45 every day most of the employees in the office take a lunch break for about a half hour and we meet in the conference room. Discussion can range from Tim Tebow to Kobe Bryant, to what was on Teen Mom 2 the week before. It is a great time for all of us to step away from our desk and converse, or just silence as a majority of us are playing words with friends against each other. We get back to the grind after lunch and from there we wrap it up around 4:45-5:00.


The aftermath and relief…

At that point I make my daily trip to the gym. My major motivation to go to the gym is to let traffic die down so it doesn’t take me another 30 minutes to get home. I have enjoyed the routine of making it every workday and at least once during the weekend. I am taking advantage of my time now as when the workload increases I am not sure how much gym time I will get.

I have reached many goals just in my three weeks there and am pleased to say, I am feeling good about myself. While it takes a lot of push and sweat, lots of sweat, I truly believe I am enjoying the stress relief and winding down time. From there I head home, make dinner and my lunch for the next day and relax, then up again for another day!


Second week of confusion…

So for my second week of church hunting I attended an evening service geared more towards young adults at RockHarbor. I enjoyed the worship very much and while I semi-fit in with the young crowd, I walked away wondering where I fit in. The message was geared toward the young audience, which is appreciated, but at the same time, I feel trapped in the middle of my young adulthood as well as the traditional service and preaching where you have to find how it relates to you. This week the pastor spoke on our roles in life, and where we are. The thing that stuck with me the most was when he spoke of his wife and a speaking opportunity she had at a conference. The topic she was to speak on was living “my dream life,” his wife struggled with that as she said this isn’t her dream life. But instead of us living our own “dream life” we are put on this earth to live HIS “dream life.”


Being content in where we are and understanding that the life that we are living is not for us but for a greater power, Jesus, is hard to see on a daily basis. I hope that I am living my life in a way that is pleasing to him. I know I let him down more times than I can count, but he still forgives and continues to love me.


As I continue this new journey I am searching to find out who I am in this new environment and where I belong…

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