As I sit here on the plane, just finished being distracted
with my softball game notes, I find myself reflecting on just the mere last two
weeks and how I cannot comprehend how present God has been in my life. After my many adventures last month and the beginning
of this month I decided it is time to buckle down, set some goals and work
towards them, so far so good but it’s had its ups and downs…
Run Baby Run…
You can ask anyone who even knows my existence and they
would be able to tell you I DO NOT LIKE TO RUN! But two lovely friends of my
got me a new Nike+ tracker for my birthday, so I said…. Here we go, time to put
it to use.
Mind you BABY STEPS, but I have been running at least every
other day, anywhere from 2-3 miles either at the gym or outside (which I
prefer). I end the week with a nice trip
to the beach to complete a 5K on a trail right above the wonderful Huntington
Beach sands. It has been such an
accomplishment to be able to set goals and gradually impress myself by
achieving those goals. It has been a
long time since I have been able to, more like had time to, focus on something
and strive for it on a personal level.
So far so good… mind you I am no marathon runner but I can’t
say that maybe a couple 5K and 10K competitions won’t be in my futureJ
Time to Reflect…
With so much going on we all know that we NEVER spend as
much time in prayer and meditation with God, and I guilty times 1,000 have made
a step to change that. I have been
attending a later evening service with my roommate and her family at Beach
Cities Community Church and I am so glad I have (hopefully) found a home.
With that I am reading the book by Francis Chin, Crazy Love and doing a daily devotional
in the morning with Jesus Calling. While I may not spend hours reflecting with
and on God and his presence in my life, I feel closer to him more than
ever!
But as we all know when we are closest to God is when those
tragedies and struggles seem to swarm, testing us to see how much faith and
trust we have in God. This flight I am
on is for a trip back to Memphis to attend a funeral service. I was saddened to hear that one of my Memphis
mentors and dear friend was killed this past weekend. It has been a struggle to understand the
details and why God would take such an amazing individual but with lots of
support here and in Memphis God has shown me that timing is everything and we
have to accept it and trust his will!
Prayer and FAITH has been my strength through this and I
hope what I will need as I see those wonderful familiar faces when I land and
feel saddened all over again.
Faith has been the word of choice for me lately. So many things in my life are at an area
where without faith and trust in the future God already has planned for me, I
would drive myself crazy… not saying I don’t a little anyways. But little things like my running and
spending time with God has shown me that in time he will reveal where my next
step is in life… for a job… for friends… for love… and whatever else he will
surprise me with.
A special thanks to all of those that have helped me get
past these past few days, and the ones to come.
My Maa (mom) is my rock and without her support emotionally I don’t know
how I would make it, and my Dad is my strength, he has been such a spiritual
witness for me and the faith he has in God for his own life is a true testimony
of God’s love.
We have to do our part in applying for all the
opportunities, the one above will open a door at the right time to display
where it is He will lead you!
“When we come into God’s presence, we begin to feel the life
around us again, but we also encounter whatever we have been avoiding. We must have the courage to face whatever is
present/our pain, our desire, our grief, our loss, our secret hopes our love/
everything that moves us most deeply.”
